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I freakin' can't stand it when people have a problem with me (most of the time over something really stupid! Like I didn't do something the way that they would have) and they choose to vent they're frustration to someone else instead of me!@!!@!! And if it worked out the way they would like it to, I would never have found out they're frustrated! THAT"S SO FREAKIN' RETARDED!@!@!@!!!!
I guess this situation is really fueling my fire right no because it's my parents that are doing this!@!@!! The people that "love me, and support me, and care for me, and are supposed to be teaching me how to be an adult" and they're acting more immature then most of the people did in my high school. You know it's never, "Keith, you're doing a great job up there. We're really proud of everything you're doing and the way you are handling yourself." Nope, I only get the privileged of hearing from my parents when I do something wrong or something they disagree with.
So here's to you mom and dad. All I ever wanted was to know that you're proud of me and that who I am is enough for your love . . . maybe one day. I can only hope.
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I'm tired of running. I'm tired of hiding. Overall this makes me mentally and spiritually exhausted. I feel run ragged.
I feel like a human doing instead of a human being. I have patterns, habits, and routines that I just mechanically walk through, and this is because nothing means anything. I go where I go because it's on my schedule and either people expect me to be (don't let people down) there or I have to show some sense of responsibility by showing up. Nothing means anything because in this pattern my heart shows little to no signs of resonating wit anything.
I read once that looks and personality fade and change, but the one thing that remains constant throughout is faith. So this thing that is supposed to give meaning to everything, this "faith", I can't seem to grip.
Different things mean a lot to different people because they enjoy them and somewhere in them this "thing" whatever it may be (religion, music, relationships, school, activities, sports) brings them some form and amount of joy or happiness. But things change, people change. These "things" present obstacles and get harder. Some days you just don't feel like doing anything, even the things that bring you the most joy. So what makes you keep going? IS it your schedule or the clock? That's what it is for me right now. But something in me tells me that there has to be something more than just my schedule and the clock, some kind of fuel for the fire that promotes and encourages perseverance through those times. The only fuel that I can see doing that is faith walking hand in hand with hope. So that then presents the question of what is faith? There may be some form of absolute, but in order for faith to be a fuel in my life I have to figure out what it means/is to me.
At this point faith has been the "thing to do" and a means by which I can "fit in". There's this overwhelming fear that without some form of this faith that I won't be able to relate to anyone close to me and I won't be accepted. This was the way it was in youth group and then it carried itself into my college of choice of what I understood to be a "Christian University". (which is why I chose it at the time. it was a place where I could go and continue to fit in and be accepted) So in times of not having faith I got really good at faking it, out of fear of not connecting with other people. So I would subject myself to disciplines that accompany faith, hoping that maybe out of my attempts of being equipped to fake it, it would manifest itself into something real (a lot of what I feel like I do from day to day even still). But after 21 years this has yet to be the case. Disciplines of prayer and reading scripture turn into times of confusion and just words on a page, and from these come conversations with other people that are just words to provide a topic for communication. From this comes a pattern of being routine and mechanic where nothing means anything.
So the reason for all of this is I'm tired of all of that. Why read and pray when it doesn't seem to affect me? But in that question is where hope finds a tiny whole to squeeze through. Because in all honesty, there have been times where prayer and reading scripture have really taken on some meaning and I feel a true connection for whatever brief time it may present itself.
So now what lys before me is a journey of making this faith my own. In the words of Henri Nouwen, "A journey of believing I am the Beloved followed by the life long journey of becoming the Beloved."
So it's right there in front of me. I know what I need to do. So now I just need to use the resources around me such as texts to expand my understanding and brothers to keep me accountable to continue on this journey. I think it's going to lead me to a place of child like faith. In a recent conversation I had with a close friend he said in a child like faith you stop feeling like you have to live for the world and can actually step into living for the sake of living and seeing where God leads you with every step and turn.
I think where frustration can start is we live in a society of immediate results and this is a process that will take a lifetime.
God grant me with patience and perseverance admits the hardest struggles. Open up my eyes to a real truth.
This felt good to et down and share. Feel free to respond and initiate conversation. My prayer is that this stirs thought beyond reading simple words on a screen. Prayers are appreciated. I love you all with all the love I have and understand.
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I'm tired of doing things that draw attention to myself. I'm sick of having the desire o have poeple look at me and think I'm "cool" in some sort.
I long to have everything I do have the goal of people looking at Christ and not myself.
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There's times that I get absolutely sick of myself. A complete mess of sinfulness (selfishness, sexual immorality, pride, lust, envy). But in the midst of all that, I take a min to quite my flesh full of guilt and begin to see how beautifully AMAZING God's grace really is.
Grace is the hardest lesson learned, a lyric I have sang over and over and now my life is playing that truth out before my very eyes. I desire focus. I desire dicipline. I desire to hear God's calling and not move until He says so. I desire to know a TRUE JOY that comes in knowing Him that prevails through anything this world trys to drown us with. I want to consider everything loss compared to knowing Jesus Christ. I just want to know Him.
I fell like I've really lost focus lately. Focus on why I do anything, on why I even breathe. why I get up and go for some 15 hours ten go to bed to wake up and do it all over again with some different variables thrown in. The absolute truth is that I was created for glory, the part I find myself forgetting though is that I' created for God's glory not my own. When I find myslef having that skewed view I find the base for all my struggles and sin. I think I deserve it or I earned it when in reality I earn death, physically and spiritually.
It makes me want to vomit when I fell like I did something to further the kingdom of God but then I search my own heart to find that whatever action I just did was really to promote my own well being. That makes me sick, I begin to wonder if I will ever know true selflessness and giving myself for others and the cause of Christ instead of myslef.
Lord grant me a focus, give me a passion to pursue You and your Glory. Father I'm sorry for ever thinking it's about me. May it be written on my heart that it's about you and may I find joy in serving You with my light. Give me decernement, bless me with wisdom and understanding. Grant my the Grace to even come close to resembling something of a Christ Light. May you be the reason for all I do, may I pursue your glory and not my own.
Please let these be more than just words. May they come to be played out in my life.
Living in a Grace not yet Understood,
Keith |
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let the dead bury their own dead
will you still love me in famine
as when love began at the harvest
or would you gain the whole world
son, I love you at your darkest
but what good is the whole world
when I promise no tomorrow
I only promise your tomorrows
will never take you past my palm
love, what is love without trust
at my word would you bring your isaac
son, I loved you at your darkest
-God is a lot bigger than I give Him credit for
-I like Nashville and the people here
-I MISS JESSICA!@!@!!!@!@!!! More than any amount of words can express
-I miss my family too, more than I thought I would
-It's challenging to live in this world but not of this world
-I'm learning surrender
Living in Grace,
Keith
Aug. 22nd, 2006 @ 11:21 pm
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Hey guys,
We're down 50 votes and voting ends tomorrow so I really need everyones help!
My band has made the top five out of thirteen bands in a contest put together by Indie Vision Music (a company based in California) Now I need your help. Now they're doing a poll vote for the top five bands, the winners get announced on Thurs. What I would ask you guys to do is follow the link at the bottom of this entry, register for an accont on the website (the account is free, you have to sign up so you can log in and vote), go to te home page, look for the post entitled "Contest Finalists" and follow the link that says "Click here to cast your vote" This we be a huge help to us. No matter if you vote or not, the guys and myself personally appreciate all of your support.Heck, thanks for taking the time to read this long bulletin if you're still reading. Blessings to All . . .
Picking Up My Cross,
Keith
band website: www.myspace.com/sophiarock
Indie Vision home site: http://www.indievisionmusic.com
Link to vote: indievisionmusic.com/forum/viewtopic.php?t=1161
THANKS GUYS AND GALS!@!@@!@!!!!@!@!!!!
Apr. 25th, 2006 @ 10:21 pm
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I know I haven't updated in soooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo long. I know, boo on me, but I need a favor from all of you and your friends. My band is in the running to get featured on a local band website and get a lot of promotion out of the deal.
http://www.indievisionmusic.com/forum/viewtopic.php?t=1143
go to this link, register, and leave a comment voting for sophia, or you can email the guys. His email is on the link. Thanks already for all you who help. Until next entry (hopefully soon). . . . . . .
Living in Grace,
Keith
Apr. 19th, 2006 @ 05:00 pm
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I am full of earth
You are heaven's worth
I am stained with dirt
Prone to depravity
You are everything that is bright and clean
The antonym of me
You are divinity
What a certain sign of grace is this
From a broken earth
Flowers come up pushing through the dirt
You are holy, holy, holy
All heaven cries holy, holy God
You are holy, holy, holy
I wanna be holy like you are
You are everything that is bright and clean
And you're covering me with your majesty
And the truest sign of grace was this
From wounded hands redemption fell down
Liberating man
You are holy, holy, holy
All heaven cries holy, holy God
You are holy, holy, holy
I wanna be holy like you are
But the harder I try
The more clearly can I
Feel the depth of our fall
And the weight of it all
And so this might could be
The most impossible thing
Your grandness in me making me clean
Holy, Hallelujah
Holy, Holy, Hallelujah
You are holy, holy, holy
All heaven cries holy, holy God
You are holy, holy, holy
I wanna be holy, holy God
Here I am all of me
Finally, everything
Holy, holy, holy
I am wholly, wholly, wholly
I am wholly, wholly, wholly yours
I am wholly yours
I am full of earth and dirt and you
Here I am
Everything
Church was UNREAL@!@!@!!!! God pursued me and met me where I was this morning. I don't know if He is doing something really big in my life right now or if I'm just more aware of what He's been doing. Why do we ever doubt the fact that God will meet us where we are. WE ARE HIS CHILDREN!!!
7"Ask and it will be given to you; seek and you will find; knock and the door will be opened to you. 8For everyone who asks receives; he who seeks finds; and to him who knocks, the door will be opened."
Mat. 7:7-8
Dead by Dawn,
Keith
( The Most Beautiful Thing Ever Seen )
Jan. 15th, 2006 @ 11:48 am
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Amazing Grace! How sweet the sound
That saved a wretch like me!
I once was lost, but now am found
Was blind, but now I see.
'Twas Grace that taught my heart to fear,
And Grace my fears relieved.
How precious did that Grace appear
The hour I first believed.
Through many dangers, toils, and snares
I have already come.
'Tis Grace hath brought me safe thus far
And Grace will lead me home.
The Lord has promised good to me.
His Word my hope secures.
He will my shield and portion be
As long as life endures.
When we've been there ten thousand years
Bright shining as the sun,
We've no less days to sing God's praise
Than when we'd first begun.
Jesus . . . . . . . . . . I'm ready to come home
Dec. 16th, 2005 @ 11:25 pm
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My sweet Jesus,
I love you.
And I'm trying so hard.
It's not so easy,
down here anymore.
Everyone just treats me,
like I'm crazy or something.
Sometimes I feel like I am,
because no one seems to understand.
But if I'm a fool, I'm a fool for you.
And if I'm alive, I'm living just for you.
If I sing a song, then I sing for you.
I sing all day long, in everything I do.
My sweet Jesus,
I'm sorry,
that I let you down again.
It's not so easy,
Down here anymore.
Everyone just treats me,
like I'm crazy or something.
And sometimes, I feel like I am.
Because no one seems to understand.
But if I'm a fool, I'm a fool for you.
and if I'm alive, I'm living just for you.
If I sing a song, then I sing for you.
I sing all day long, in everything I do.
I will rejoice in this foolishness.
I will rejoice in this foolishness.
Dec. 12th, 2005 @ 06:16 pm
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1. How many songs do you have on your computer?
1675
2. Sort by song name--What are your first and last songs?
(A) - mewithoutyou; Zombie Autopilot - Unearth
3. Sort by album--What are your first and last albums?
!Crimes! - Blood Brothers; Zao - Zao
4. Sort by time--What are your shortest and longest songs?
Breakfast at Timpani's (:22) - Relient K
Track 1 (39:35) - Louie Giglio
5. Sort by last played--What were the first and last songs played on your computer?
Last Played – Left With Alibis and Lying Eyes - Emery
First Played – I Had Muisc In My Heart, But Now My Heart Is Broken - Showbread
6. Search for "Love"--How many songs are listed?
106
7. Search for "Hate"--How many songs are listed?
16
8. Search for "Day"--How many songs are listed?
101
9. Search for "Night"--How many songs are listed?
30
10. What are your top five most played songs?
Torches Together - mewithoutyou
Roulette Dares (The Haunt Of) - The Mars Volta
94 Hours - As I Lay Dying
Intertiatic E.S.P. - The Mars Volta
January 1979 - mewithoutyou
Dec. 6th, 2005 @ 10:59 pm
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I'm honestly not so good at this updating thing. But you know, it happens when it does, and if I'm following where He leads, there's nothing better than that! And this word . . . . Honesty has been a big one in my life lately. Honesty leads to Venerability and being venerable SUCKS!!!!!@!!!!! But it's the best kind of suck EVER!!!! I mean that, and I hope many of you know what I mean by that and if you don't, don't be afraid to leave a comment and ask me. But being venerable feels like you're outside in 4-degree weather, it's raining, and you're curled up in a fettle position in your underwear. YEAH!! Like that. But that feeling is AMAZING because at that point all you can do is wait for your Heavenly Father to swoop in and wrap you in His Warm, Loving, Comforting arms. GOSH, GOD IS AWSEOME!!!@@!!!@!!!!! And I'm awful and disgusting and sinful, but there's more to it than that. I'm alive and saved by Christ, and when He becomes m Savior I become a new creation. "I will give you a new heart and put a new spirit in you . . . " Ezek 36:26
With that said, I have been really struggling with tapping into true joy lately. It seems my smiles, at least the real ones, have been few and far between and far between. (I feel like this entry is more for myself than for anyone else, but I'm going to put it out there in case He chooses to do His work through it. To God be the glory) AND I DON'T KNOW HOW TO ESCAPE THIS, at least that is what my flesh is trying to tell me. I mean, I even have the blessing of quite possibly THE BEST GIRLFRIEND IN THE WORLD, and I've found it hard to even smile when I'm talking to her. I don't get it, there's no reason for me to be sad or even upset. I think a lot of things are contributing to this. I'm not nearly thankful enough. When we reach a true spirit of thanksgiving we rise above all circumstances and are able to experience true rejoicing. I'm talking about the kind of thanksgiving that is being thankful for our next breath, the sun rising, the fact that God sent His only son to die for us and because of it we have eternal salvation. What the HECK, I HAVE NO RESAON TO COME EVEN CLOSE TO BEING SAD@@!@!!!!! GOD LOVES ME!!!! Gosh, may He turn this revelation into rejoicing in all circumstances. I also have been dwelling way too much and way too long on so many things because my flesh tells me that they're big deals. But when we are truly thankful then all our circumstances seem small. Not too mention these are the very circumstances than God allowed to happen in our lives for the sole purpose of drawing us closer to Him. MAN!!!! God is GOOD. His strength is made perfect in my weakness (RIGHT NOW!!!@!@@!) Lord I surrender, RIGHT NOW, ALL OF ME, ALL TO THE, draw near to me as I draw near to You. So here's to experiencing true joy, hearing god sing over us with rejoicing inspiring us to rejoice all circumstances. God gives and God takes away, Blessed be the name of the Lord.
Though Satan should buffet, though trials should come,
Let this blessed assurance control,
That Christ has regarded my helpless estate,
And hath shed His own blood for my soul.
It is well, with my soul,
It is well, with my soul,
It is well; it is well, with my soul.
I'm excited about what God is doing right now. Sophia is recording an EP to be pressed and has plans to tour over spring break (the spring breakdown tour) God willing, so may His name be praise and to Him be the glory through all of it. I'm excited about this semester ending, being home with my family, passion, and experiencing God provide for all of it. Until next entry . . . . .
Dead by Dawn,
Keith
( To Jessica Anne Rosenkoetter )
Dec. 1st, 2005 @ 06:30 pm
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What will be left when I've drawn my last breath
Besides the folks I've met and the folks who've known me
Will I discover a soul-saving love
Or just the dirt above and below me
I'm a doubting Thomas
I took a promise
But I do not feel safe
Oh me of little faith
Sometimes I pray for a slap in the face
Then I beg to be spared cause I'm a coward
If there's a master of death
I bet he's holding his breath
As I show the blind and tell the deaf about his power
I'm a doubting Thomas
I can't keep my promises
Cause I don't know what's safe
Oh me of little faith
Can I be used to help others find truth
When I'm scared I'll find proof that it's a lie
Can I be led down a trail dropping bread crumbs
That prove I'm not ready to die
Please give me time to decipher the signs
Please forgive me for time that I've wasted
I'm a doubting Thomas
I'll take your promise
Though I know nothin's safe
Oh me of little faith
Father,
Forgive me for ever doubting!!! Doubting that you are alive and with me, doubting the vastness of Your love, doubting the comfort of Your embrace, doubting Your satisfaction, DOUBTING!!!! I love you Lord, thank you that love keeps no record of wrongs. Strengthen me to die to myself with my next breath and live a life of love to worship You. In Jesus' Saving Name I Pray,
Amen
Nov. 17th, 2005 @ 11:39 pm
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He's up to something BIG!@!@!@!!@!!!!!! No Doubt! Where to begin?:
-Dane and Deb got married this weekend!! Yeah, MARRIED!! It was amazing! Just being there for him, witnessing God truly bringing eveything together for His glory and no one elses.
-While in Athens I got to spend some time with the miracle of God's Jessica Anne Rosenkoetter. She is AMAZING!!@!@!@!@ God has brought her up to be such an austounding women of Christ and I see it in her everytime without fail becuase He continues to grow her in His ultimate plan. He really set me at peace this weekend with our relationship. I'm just so stinkin' excited to be IN LOVE WITH HER and what He has for our relationship with each moment He has for us.
-God has called me to a lot of things coming up and just recently He has set me at peace with all of them. They all are a call to surrnedor and submitt to knowing that He is in control and grants a peace that is found no where else.: I have the chance to become an RA next semester, God is working in the hearts of each of my band members and really taking Sophia to new heights, I have a little brother through Big Brother Big Sister-his name is Kiwan and he is THE MAN!!!, and school continues on and I am just so thankful for being here.
-Aiport Runners(the people that run through the airport, to the point of running up escalators to make their flight) are quite possibly one of my favorite things.
-"Pirates attack ship off the coast of Somilia" that was a CNN headline today. REAL PIRATES@@!!@!@!@!!!
That's about it. Just making the most of every oppertunity. I miss some people, probably you if your reading this, but I know I'm where He has me here for a reason and divine appointments happen everyday. Until next entry . . . . .
Dead By Dawn,
Keith
Nov. 8th, 2005 @ 10:04 pm
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Deliver me out of the sadness
Deliver me from all the madness
Deliver me courage to guide me
Deliver me Your strength inside me
CHORUS:
All of my life
I've been in hiding
Wishing there was someone just like You
Now that You're here
Now that I've found You
I know that You're the One to pull me through
Deliver me loving and caring
Deliver me giving and sharing
Deliver me this cross that I'm bearing
Oh, deliver me
Jesus, Jesus how I trust You
How I've proved You o'er and o'er
Jesus, Jesus precious Jesus
Deliver me
Come and pull me through
Come pull me through
-David Crowder Band
28"Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. 29Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. 30For my yoke is easy and my burden is light."
Matthew 11:28-30
God is good, so many blessings to be thankful for: Show tomorrow in Alabama, my guys in the band (I love you boys!!!), my girlfriend (coming here tomorrow) whom I LOVE!@@!@!@@!!!!!, this campus, friends, family, The SAVING GRACE THAT COMES FROM CHRIST'S BLOOD!!!! THANK YOU FATHER!!!!
Turning Blessings Back In Praise,
Keith
Oct. 27th, 2005 @ 10:19 pm
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The meditation of my heart for the past 3 days:
"To this end I labor, struggling with all his energy, which so powerfully works in me."
Colossians 1:29
Dying Daily,
Keith
Oct. 3rd, 2005 @ 03:52 pm
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WOAH!@!!@!!!@!!! God is GOOD!@@!! I've been learning so much lately and have seen prayer in action, and come to see how prayer is soooooooo essential (like breathing) I've been blessed to be involved with a group of really great, talented guys, who love Jesus with all their hearts. I would like to personally say thank you to Ryan, Bennett, Steve, Austin, Dan, and Kyle for all they've been in my life and the ways I've seen Christ in them in the past week.
All the guys listed have contributed to the group now known as Sophia. Go check us out, http://www.myspace.com/sophiarock Keep serving Him, acknowledging Him in all that you do. Until next time . . . .
Dying Daily,
Keith
Sep. 24th, 2005 @ 02:17 am
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I'm sitting at the desk, the beloved Pembroke desk that I will call my job for 10 hrs. a week all semester long. I got about an hour left. I feel like I've been fighting this sinus infection for a month. God has really opened doors and things have fallen into place for the musical act currently known as Jules Verne (www.purevolume.com/julesverne) It looks like we are going to have a steady practice space, each one of us is excited to see what God has for us, and there is even rumor of a possible show on the 14th of September. I just pray God uses us to reach others for Him and we play for an audience o one. Refuge is tonight, I will be heading there right after my shift ends. God has been moving rockin' my world in the past couple of weeks. Last weekend I was broken and I prayed that He would continue to do so until I was completely broken, taking all the strength and desire I have to hold onto things of this world with my own strength, and boast in my weakness that I might rely completely on His strength. My heart has been broken for some people around me, and I am daily pursuing dropping my pride that I might stand and be bold for Christ.
"by God has revealed it to us by his Spirit. The Spirit searches all things, even the deep things of God. For who among men knows the thoughts of a man except the man's spirit within him? In the same way no one knows the thoughts of God except the Spirit of God. We have not received the spirit of the world but the Spirit who is form God, tat we may understand what God has freely given us. This is what we speak, not in words taught us by human wisdom but in words taught by the Spirit, expressing spiritual truths in spiritual words. The man without the Spirit does not accept the things that come from the Spirit of God, for they are foolishness to him, and he cannot understand them, because they are spiritually discerned. The spiritual man makes judgments about all things, but he himself is not subject to any man's judgment:
'For who has known the mind of the Lord
that he may instruct him?'
But we have the mind of Christ."
1 Corinthians 2:10-16
Dying Daily,
Keith
Aug. 30th, 2005 @ 06:59 pm
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Wow!!! It's been a while since the last entry. When last we met I had just cut my hair, I was still in D-town, and I was too lazy to tell all the details of my summer. While some things have changed, some have not. I am still too lazy to tell all about my summer, but I will say this: God is AWESOME, He moved mighty this summer and revealed Himself in so many different ways. Each one of you that was apart of my summer, no matter how big or small, short time or long time, God used you to touch my life in different ways and to each of you I thank you for hearing His call and obeying. While my hair is still "buzzed' (I think that is the correct term) I did have a mohawk for a little while, maybe I'll post pictures of that adventure soon. I am no longer in D-town. I have been in the lovely Nashvegas for almost 2 weeks. It was great coming back and seeing everyone that even though we didn't keep in close contact over the summer, I missed dearly. God is rockin' my world right now. I'm just going each day, dying myself and picking up my cross, taking advantage of every opportunity for the days are evil, and living for Him so that He may be glorified.
"For I know the plans I have for you," declares the Lord, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. Then you will call upon me and come and pray to me, and I will listen to you. You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart."
Jeremiah 29:11-13
Denying Myself and Picking Up My Cross,
Keith
( I thank my God everytime I remember you )
Aug. 25th, 2005 @ 06:08 pm
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